"When we are happy, we are good; but when we are good, we aren't always happy. " Oscar Wilde
This line takes me to so many moments in my life, but one that I probably haven't written about often. You see in my 20s, shortly after I married and moved to India, I had an emotional affair.
I met a man who probably in another lifetime was or will be my soulmate. I met a man who ignited an energy in me I didn't know was possible in my 25 years of existence. This man was not my husband. For matters of respect, I'll call the man Abishek because in many ways he had his charm, vivacity and brutish good looks of the handsome Indian actor.
I was 25 and out with some young friends one night at a bar. My husband at the time (now my ex-husband) was away on work. At the time, he was away on work at least 50% of our weeks, if not more, it was challenging being in a dynamic place like India and not getting to process it together, still the same, I was not looking for trouble.
I am a good girl, from receiving the Citizenship award in 5th grade to being one of the 3 selected May Day girls in 8th grade to being selected for Who's Who Among American High School Students and a number of other awards for good character in my life. I repeat, I was not looking for trouble.
Having said that, I believe in energy, forces, life-quickenings and this moment was one that I will never forget and that I hope will continue to grow in my next lives if reincarnation does exist.
"Have you seen Bride and Prejudice?" One of my friends asked giggling.
I responded "Yes, if I ever get married again or in my next life, I want an Indian Bollywood dance, to bring me together with my partner. I want us to both be dancing and then the choreography magically swirls us together."
In steps, Abishek "I can make that happen."
I was taken aback. A Northern Indian looking man with big round eyes, dark thick eyebrows and thick wavy hair turned around and drove right into our conversation "What?" I asked.
"The Bollywood dance. The Choreography. The Indian wedding." He said cheekily.
And for whatever reason, perhaps my 25-year old naivety; perhaps, the movie star smile or perhaps, real and pure magic happened, but I did believe him and I knew somehow in my life that perhaps that wedding had already happened or would happen sometime when our souls knew each other or would know one another again.
The rest of the evening transpired. Abishek is the person in my life who dreams like no other person I know so far. He doesn't believe in limits. He believes in love. He creates wonderful advertisements that make hearts flutter. He aspires to spread love through film, through commercials, through jingles, through messages, through applications. And, when I am around him, I too believe and I can ask questions that make his dreams grow new sprouts within seconds.
Abishek and I had an 80s movie night that evening and many after. Long, dreamy conversations that I can visualize to this day, walking under canopies of trees, sensual spices floating through the air, bidding adieu with an awkward hug or pat and waiting for a kiss, but I was good, and sometimes, rarely, goodness may fester more problems than it solves.
If you're lucky, you'll get more Abishek slices later. He has been a presence in my life since 25. He's no longer dangerous and I believe he probably won't be in this lifetime but I have no doubt our collective wonder and spirit will penetrate many lives to come.
#SOL #TWTBlog #Oldfriends #Soulmates
This line takes me to so many moments in my life, but one that I probably haven't written about often. You see in my 20s, shortly after I married and moved to India, I had an emotional affair.
I met a man who probably in another lifetime was or will be my soulmate. I met a man who ignited an energy in me I didn't know was possible in my 25 years of existence. This man was not my husband. For matters of respect, I'll call the man Abishek because in many ways he had his charm, vivacity and brutish good looks of the handsome Indian actor.
I was 25 and out with some young friends one night at a bar. My husband at the time (now my ex-husband) was away on work. At the time, he was away on work at least 50% of our weeks, if not more, it was challenging being in a dynamic place like India and not getting to process it together, still the same, I was not looking for trouble.
I am a good girl, from receiving the Citizenship award in 5th grade to being one of the 3 selected May Day girls in 8th grade to being selected for Who's Who Among American High School Students and a number of other awards for good character in my life. I repeat, I was not looking for trouble.
Having said that, I believe in energy, forces, life-quickenings and this moment was one that I will never forget and that I hope will continue to grow in my next lives if reincarnation does exist.
"Have you seen Bride and Prejudice?" One of my friends asked giggling.
I responded "Yes, if I ever get married again or in my next life, I want an Indian Bollywood dance, to bring me together with my partner. I want us to both be dancing and then the choreography magically swirls us together."
In steps, Abishek "I can make that happen."
I was taken aback. A Northern Indian looking man with big round eyes, dark thick eyebrows and thick wavy hair turned around and drove right into our conversation "What?" I asked.
"The Bollywood dance. The Choreography. The Indian wedding." He said cheekily.
And for whatever reason, perhaps my 25-year old naivety; perhaps, the movie star smile or perhaps, real and pure magic happened, but I did believe him and I knew somehow in my life that perhaps that wedding had already happened or would happen sometime when our souls knew each other or would know one another again.
The rest of the evening transpired. Abishek is the person in my life who dreams like no other person I know so far. He doesn't believe in limits. He believes in love. He creates wonderful advertisements that make hearts flutter. He aspires to spread love through film, through commercials, through jingles, through messages, through applications. And, when I am around him, I too believe and I can ask questions that make his dreams grow new sprouts within seconds.
Abishek and I had an 80s movie night that evening and many after. Long, dreamy conversations that I can visualize to this day, walking under canopies of trees, sensual spices floating through the air, bidding adieu with an awkward hug or pat and waiting for a kiss, but I was good, and sometimes, rarely, goodness may fester more problems than it solves.
If you're lucky, you'll get more Abishek slices later. He has been a presence in my life since 25. He's no longer dangerous and I believe he probably won't be in this lifetime but I have no doubt our collective wonder and spirit will penetrate many lives to come.
#SOL #TWTBlog #Oldfriends #Soulmates
Hmm, sounds like the first night that dreams are made of! How different your life might have been if you were not a "good girl" back then, but your current life is pretty awesome too.
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