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Sunday, March 17, 2013

I want to break free


This past weekend I went away to a technology conference in London. 

 I thought nothing of going to it.  It was just another conference in something that I am interested in.  And yet, going back to Barcelona I feel like I've been on Jupiter and had this somewhat life altering experience.  

I have mixed feelings about the whole experience. Leaving your comfort zone isn't what I would call fun.  I mean there are moments when you learn or do something you couldn't dream possible or when you are intoxicated by cold, fresh air like you would be from taking a shot of tequila or 3, but the word fun isn't what comes to mind.  I think challenged would be the positive side of it but confused would be the opposite side of things.

I guess that was what was scary, how lost and confused I felt after, after feeling confident and secure before I arrived. Now, I don't know where to go or what to do with my life, with my career as an educator.  I feel a little bit more sad about the world and really just unsure of what's the next step, when in the back of my mind I know that I need to be stimulated and inspired by my work which must on some level involve a good deal of intellectual research and discourse, but also involve working with people of varying levels of education, class, race, etc. 

  That being said, everything that I have seen in the last 2 days awakened me to a few clarities:

A) Even though our school doesn't have tons of resources it is a supportive environment for giving its staff the opportunity to develop professionally. I feel I am on the right track and my independent motivation combined with a pretty supportive community has allowed me to personally advance in my understanding of technology, and 75% of what we have finished have aided in students understanding of themselves as individuals and collaborators

B) The bells and the whistles of all these technological ipad/ android apps in the world are beginning to overlap and finding the ones that help push critical thinking skills, and which also have a real and forward set of real world application and lastly, produce something which shows a comprehension of content and ability to understand and explain, are far and few between

C) Asb has to start honing in on one implementation strategy or all of them are going to implode

D) Kids are losing out on some core understandings of basic economics in the world due to all these gadgets and gizmos and all this incessant consumerism largely influenced by the extreme increase of technological devices over the last ten years

E) I have to solve some issues of the world, whether that happens by actually going out into underdeveloped countries and teaching OR by starting to design some projects in school with technology  that actually help people in developing countries gain access to some of the basic human resources we have; something has got to change and quickly.

When we don't know, we are free, but when we know, we inherit chains limiting our freedom.  And the knowledge brings a whole different set of powers, because we have the privilege to choose what we do with this knowledge, do we break free from the chains and try to pretend like we don´t know, or do we summon up all the courage we have and do something.  

Sometimes, especially when I think of my time in Senegal or Southern Venezuela or in the mountains of Chiang Mai, I feel like not knowing is power. The smiles on those faces in those places stemmed from smoking corn cigarettes and playing 3, 6, 9 in a variety of languages; or how about a foreign couple entering the local bar located in the living room of another foreigner; or laughing at the four foreigners sleeping together in solidarity to avoid the danger of a single rat, all of these generate energy you can´t get from an Ipad. 

Often I feel as if our Westernized worries and fears only bring laughter to the poorest people in the world and when we think about them, they can bring laughter to even us and the ridiculousness of our reactions.  

On the contrary our westernized wealthier cultures often bring worry and stress as people travel or immigrate to our countries and sadly this repeats twice as much on our side.  We aim to accommodate but cultural norms sometimes close down communication ending commonly in misunderstanding.

In the end I come back to the Macy Gray lyrics and aim to be bigger, better and bolder in the days to come.

Get up, get out
And do somethin'
Don't let the days of your life pass you by
You got to
Get up, get out
And do somethin'
How will you make it if you never even try
Get up, get out
And do somethin'
Can't spend your whole life tryin' to get high
You got to get up, get out
And do somethin'
'Cause you and I have to do
For you and I

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