By March of last year, I had experienced so many highs and lows, you would have thought I was having a heart attack if you looked at a heart monitor. There were beats that blew up, there were beats that made big bangs and there were beats that bellowed sadness and pain.
In 2012, there has been these silent growths within myself, my life, my understanding of the world that are creeping up through soil and I am hoping that they sprout into something incredible.
One part of my life that has been particularly enchanting is a boy. After my last shot of love, which lasted approximately 6 months but felt like what I would imagine a heroin injection would, an extreme high, followed by a terribly dreadful low, I am cautious to speak too much of it. However, the more I talk about it, the more I realize that I am dating a friend. Someone that I share amazing conversations with that climb up poles like ivy creating these beautiful intertwined plants that energize and support one another. I am dating someone that enjoys adventures, culinary, travel, pure fun as much as I do and is willing to get lost in order to find. And, the best part is that the whole thing does not stress me out. I saw an ex last week and it could have been stressful. It made me think a bit, but in the end, I felt at peace with my situation and comfortable where I was with myself and no need to make a bigger deal about it than it was.
Another part of life that has been satisfying is work. I am working with two kind, thoughtful and cooperative people and that has made my work environment both positive and enjoyable. And even though, I am dealing with by far the most neurotic, behavior issue filled group of students I have ever worked with, I feel incredibly inspired to help, to teach, to reach out, to problem solve in order to get these kids on track for next year. It sure hasn´t been easy and success is hard to measure on this front, but I feel like it´s improving and baby steps are key to our progress in general. Finally, I have had the opportunity to present, exchange knowledge, attend conferences etc. and learn a whole bunch of new things in a work environment which has been extremely transparent. A wonderful embraced change!
Finally, I have been lucky enough to have a recent surge of incredible people in my life all around. Old friends paying visits to my stomping grounds, connections with friends of friends. If I can have one wish in my life, it´s in the honor of the traveling funeral novel, I want my friends to have a big blowout when I die. If I can bring all those amazing people together to celebrate, discuss, laugh, dance and eat while telling stories that we shared around the world, than I will know my life has been something beautiful and that my legend and life will still grow even when I lie beneath the earth.
In 2012, there has been these silent growths within myself, my life, my understanding of the world that are creeping up through soil and I am hoping that they sprout into something incredible.
One part of my life that has been particularly enchanting is a boy. After my last shot of love, which lasted approximately 6 months but felt like what I would imagine a heroin injection would, an extreme high, followed by a terribly dreadful low, I am cautious to speak too much of it. However, the more I talk about it, the more I realize that I am dating a friend. Someone that I share amazing conversations with that climb up poles like ivy creating these beautiful intertwined plants that energize and support one another. I am dating someone that enjoys adventures, culinary, travel, pure fun as much as I do and is willing to get lost in order to find. And, the best part is that the whole thing does not stress me out. I saw an ex last week and it could have been stressful. It made me think a bit, but in the end, I felt at peace with my situation and comfortable where I was with myself and no need to make a bigger deal about it than it was.
Another part of life that has been satisfying is work. I am working with two kind, thoughtful and cooperative people and that has made my work environment both positive and enjoyable. And even though, I am dealing with by far the most neurotic, behavior issue filled group of students I have ever worked with, I feel incredibly inspired to help, to teach, to reach out, to problem solve in order to get these kids on track for next year. It sure hasn´t been easy and success is hard to measure on this front, but I feel like it´s improving and baby steps are key to our progress in general. Finally, I have had the opportunity to present, exchange knowledge, attend conferences etc. and learn a whole bunch of new things in a work environment which has been extremely transparent. A wonderful embraced change!
Finally, I have been lucky enough to have a recent surge of incredible people in my life all around. Old friends paying visits to my stomping grounds, connections with friends of friends. If I can have one wish in my life, it´s in the honor of the traveling funeral novel, I want my friends to have a big blowout when I die. If I can bring all those amazing people together to celebrate, discuss, laugh, dance and eat while telling stories that we shared around the world, than I will know my life has been something beautiful and that my legend and life will still grow even when I lie beneath the earth.
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