Some things I realized

As I finish off a book entitled the "Happiness project," I feel the need to write down some thoughts. It's taken me 6 months to get through this somewhat uplifting, somewhat preachy, somewhat annoying text. I don't know if I like that the author is constantly compromising herself for other people. I mean life is obviously a series of compromises, but should we not win some as well. Maybe the small wins are the ones we take for granted, who knows.

Things I realized in the past 6 months.

-Sticking my head under hot water or the back of my neck, is pretty much as exhilarating as going out into a field and screaming loudly. It seems to release almost everything.

-This has been a roller-coaster of a year. Relationships, moves, health issues, etc.

-Having said that, my family still is around to support me. My heart is still beating strongly. My eyes are generally clear. My friends surround me with warm wishes. Someone is looking out for me.

-Venezuela has probably been the toughest country I have ever moved to and stayed.

-Music can parallel my moods, can help them shift into positive or sad ones, but mostly is something that is extremely medicinal to me.

-Interval running isn't as bad as everyone thinks.

-I love my job and learn more every week but I still am not sure it's what I am supposed to do forever.

-My current before I die I want to status still stands at flash mob dancing.

-If something is easy or somewhat easy, let it be, develop comfort to a certain level before you rush out to change anything drastic.

-I miss my wine buddies, my runs to yoga, my dancing Champagne nights with Egyptian women, inspiring chats with bald men, getting 3 new outfits each month at H and M, morning cappucinos and the shagging wagon more than I ever thought I would.

-The shipping debaucle is making me absolutely neurotic and is trickling down into family, work, friends. When do you let go and admit defeat?

-Blogging is my new form of journalling, sadly, after tons and tons of journals before I was married to now. The words on a computer screen just can't emit as much emotion; no matter how powerful they are.